I am happy, I really am.
But inside I am always fighting with a clock that tells me that I am going to run out of time.
They all say that you don’t need to decide right now or that you have all the time in the world.
What they are really saying is that it sucks to be me and it sucks to be lost but at least that is not happening to them.
I am always fighting with a clock that is trying to tell me that I am out of time.
Just do something, just pick something it doesn’t really matter anyway.
But it matters to me.
I want to do something that I love.
The world is not a perfect place and I know that I have to grow up and deal with that but don’t I deserve to do something that I love.
Why is that even a question.
I am not unhappy, I am just a little lost and confused.
There are things to be happy about everyday but even when I am the happiest, I am still racing against the clock that tells me that I cannot be happy if I do not choose something to do.
Why.

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